This week has been hard, so very hard, and I feel like I am going mad! As I was trying to find some kind of cure for my grief to somehow ease the pain, I came across this video which has spoken so clearly to me! The cure for grief is motion, unknowingly this is what I am doing- I am getting up, I am going to work, I am meeting friends, I am exercising when I am able, I am trying to inject some motion!
I am climbing Mount Kilimanjaro in just over a week for my guy- I had joked with him that we would do this climb on our honeymoon- he laughed and told me he would see me when I got back! I am doing this to show or to prove to him and to myself that I will be ok, that I will survive, that I will and can do as I promised him and live the best life that I possibly can! I am also raising money for the Irish Cancer Society in memory of my guy- so that the wonderful research they are undertaking can continue and at some stage in the future cancer will no longer result in this traumatic end!
I don’t expect that this motion will cure my grief! Hopefully, when I get to the summit, I will see the blue skies above the grey clouds and know that he is with me.